Monday, March 24, 2008

...if i were a butterfly


if i were a butterfly, thank you LORD for giving me wings
if i were a fish in a sea, thank you LORD for i can swim
and if i were a robin in a tree, thank you LORD for i can sing
but i just thank you, father for making me, ME.


so simple song yet it really brings great joy to me knowing how unique i am and how blessed i was made. i just want to express how much i've been thankful with my life. i want to go back from where i started. i was nothing then. i was that small, curly-haired girl who you can always see sitting on the front seat of the class. i was that very shy girl who was hiding behind my sister when i saw my classmate approaching because i was not properly dressed up. i was that young lady who felt in love with a guy who she expected to be his man someday. i was that dreamer who dreams to teach kids someday or to work in a good company in order to provide my family their needs. i was that crying lady who always cries when confronted with problems. i was that struggling student trying to go to class with only have enough money for transportation and food or sometimes no budget for food because of some extra expenses. i was that newly graduate who is trying to have a good start of my career......and that ends my story......i mean that begins my story.

well ...let's take the last line 'i was that newly graduate who is trying to have a good start of my career'. just want to share my story..my one of the greatest struggles. i was hired by let's call it 'HIPPO COMPANY' . i was blessed of course because i was able to do administrative functions which is so much related with my field of study. i took effort to travel from Novaliches to Makati just to be on time. what i am trying to say is that i did a lot sacrifices just to get the Administrative Assistant position. i was enjoying my work but unfortunately without any warning, i found myself being humiliated !. actually with a warning..a memo from my boss asking my written explanation as to why i tolerated someone..it's such a long story and i choose not to tell more because i don't want to remember all. well i was judged by people around me, i felt really small, i was accused. but it doesn't end there. I'M PROUD OF MYSELF. why? i realized a lot. I realized how much GOD LOVES ME. He carried me during my lowest times. He even wiped my tears before falling down. He stayed with me to make me calm. He lifted me up. He reminds me that 'if my GOD is for me, then who can be against me?'. Wow! My that experience made me a better person! Now i'm telling you that i'm not that too sensitive now like before. I take life as not as serious as before. i mean i'm enjoying things even life brings me to the end of the rope..oh well! I'M TeSted! I'm strong, I'm sure...always ready to face whatever struggles life may give. i really changed! for better i am sure! what i am praying right now is that may i have the gift of wisdom to choose wisely...to be more cautious in making decisions. may i always be aware that there are consequences ahead that certainly i will face...may i be more faithful so that i may be more conscious every time i'm making a wrong move.. i should be more prayerful so that i can become closer to God..i wish i could express how much GOD LOVES ME through this testimony. I realized that GOd never fails anyone who believes in him...He could give us far better than we can imagine..as long as we are faithful...as long as we keep the love in our hearts..as long as we are growing in age and wisdom as the way God wants us to be.


i will love the Lord with all my hearti will love the Lord with all my soul i will love the Lord with all my mind....with all my soul, with all my heart, with all my mind.