Meet Princess Erika...

Will bridesmaid always be a bridesmaid?

The bridesmaid, wearing a beautiful gown fresh from Merly's Dress Shop, had to be enticed to walk down the aisle. Often the bridesmaid struggled with her gown and found walking backward much easier than walking forward.

Will she ever find her prince?

JR & JLAC (Joana Luz A. Cadenas) Nuptial.
The TGS Reunion. January 18, 2009 @ Lucky D Resort, Sariaya Quezon.
Pehn, Sahn, Joanh, Bhel, Lho with JR.

As we go on, we remember

All the times we had together

And as our lives change, come whatever

We will still be, friends forever

Two special events happened. First, Reunion of hearts of JR&JLAC and TGS (Tondo GirlS but not originally from Tondo, Manila) the Reunion. Well, i would like to talk about Tondo GirlS. They are really amazing friends of mine way back High School. Alam mu ung tipong pag pinagsama-sama eh parang ala ng bukas kung humalakhak at magkulitan. So blessed to have this group. If you are going to ask me how's my high school days, I'll tell you that these girls ang nagpasaya saken at nagbigay buhay ng high school ko. They're my confidants. They're my cheerers. I remember pa nga I when joined Intramurals. Well, I used to be a volleyball player and everytime we had a game, TGS was there to cheer at xmpre ilibre ako ng shake sa canteen after..heheh. Nakakatuwang isipin na after ilang years, eto we were able to get together though hindi talaga kami kompleto. We are 13 actually. Some are busy. Others are just hiding or hindi nagpaparamdam. What I'm praying is that sana FRIENDS FOREVER till death do us part..haha. Super thankful ako to have them. Ang saya ko nung night before the wedding, sobrang kulitan bago matulog..i guess we just missed each other so much. Kulang ung time na magkwentuhan. One thing is for sure..so blessed to have you guyz!

Shepherd of my SouL

Dear Jesus,

Know what my dearest friend?
I don't know how I'm leading my life right now..
I feel I'm not doing fine..
Honestly, I'm confuse..

I feel so alone..
..though i have friends
..though my family is there
..though many people care about me

I feel so sad..
..though i have a good job
..though i have money to buy what i want
..though i have friends to go out with, to have fun with

I guess it's my spirit..
I guess it's about YOU!

When was the last time i prayed hard?
When was the last time i'm being honest with myself?

My best friend,
please help me to grow in age and wisdom as you want me to be
that i may live my life according to your will

Shepherd of my souL,
you gave me full control
whenever YOu may lead
I will follow..

A New Year Prayer

Dear Lord,

We pray that this New Year will bring us closer to You.
May we take the time to get to know You.
Help us to truly appreciate the gifts You have graciously given us
and use them to serve You and spread Your word.

May we also see and love you in all the people we meet,
so that in turn, they can see You in us.

We know that all human relations take time if they are to grow and deepen.
This is also true of our relations with You,
the Father, and the Holy Spirit,
which must grow over the course of our lives.
In this New Year,
let us realize that every action of ours no matter
how great or small enables us to be in touch with you.

Let us accept You in our lives, in the way it pleases You,

as Truth, to be spoken,
as Life, to be lived,
as Light, to be lighted,
as Love, to be followed,
as Joy, to be given,
as Peace, to be spread about,
as Sacrifice, to be offered among our relatives, friends, neighbors and all people.

Amen.

Spectakotlar :)

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Familiar right? Just my Luck is a romantic comedy film starring Lindsay Lohan & Chris Pine. I think it is a little bit of an over-the-top comedy, but it's funny & cute & it's silly. "WHAT AM I, A TARGET?" This is the line i really liked in the movie because i can really relate to it. Im pretty clumsy. May kamalasan in other words. I don't know. But sometimes i like being careless (laugh) Feeling ko kc ako c Lindsay Lohan??? wahahaha..un un eh. or more likely Chris Pine. Well, it's just me. Imperfect. Pretty clumsy. But i like it. I should better be ready for what will happen next. So read my next entry..heheh:) Thanks!

PenPaLs LinK

BREAKAWAY:)

TwiLight of my Life

About three things I was absolutely positive. First, Edward was not a vampire. Second, there was part of me — and I didn’t know how potent that part might be — that I'm thirsty of. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.

If I was being honest with myself, I knew I was eager to get to work because I would see Edward. And that was very, very stupid.

My throat suddenly felt tight. I wasn’t used to being taken care of, and Edward ’s unspoken concern caught me by surprise.

I was consumed by the mystery Edward presented. And more than a little obsessed by Edward himself.

As always, I was electrically aware of Edward sitting close enough to touch, as distant as if he were merely an invention of my imagination.

I couldn’t allow him to have this level of influence over me. It was pathetic. More than pathetic, it was unhealthy.

I turned slowly, unwillingly. I didn’t want to feel what I knew I would feel when I looked at his too-perfect face.

I wasn’t interesting. And he was. Interesting… and brilliant… and mysterious… and perfect… and beautiful… and possibly able to lift full-sized vans with one hand.

It was difficult to believe that I hadn’t just imagined what Edward had said, and the way his eyes had looked. Maybe it was just a very convincing dream that I’d confused with reality. That seemed more probable than that I really appealed to him on any level.

I can’t imagine why that would be frustrating at all — just because someone refuses to tell you what they’re thinking, even if all the while they’re making cryptic little remarks specifically designed to keep you up at night wondering what they could possibly mean… now, why would that be frustrating?

His voice was like melting honey. I could imagine how much more overwhelming his eyes would be.

And I couldn’t stop the gloom that engulfed me as I realized I didn’t know how long I would have to wait before I saw him again.

I feel very safe with him.

I didn’t like it. Not seeing him. It makes me anxious.

I wanted to close that little distance, to reach out and touch him, but I was afraid he wouldn’t like me to.

I was stunned by the unexpected electricity that flowed through me, amazed that it was possible to be more aware of him than I already was. A crazy impulse to reach over and touch him, to stroke his perfect face just once in the darkness, nearly overwhelmed me.

Just give me a minute to restart my heart.

I think I forgot to breathe.

I love you. I will always love you, no matter what happens now.

Here comes D

Here comes D
I don't know why him
When i was editing the way back into love lyrics
he approached me
we had a little conversation
hoping to start with sweet sensation
actually work related issues
well sign na ba un?

and just like the lyrics..
i've been looking for someone to shed some light
hope that would be J_ _ _ _ _ _ D _ _ _.

Lord, I'm praying for someone
who will accept me the way i am
who will be there to vanish of my fears
who will love me
who will stand by my side and looking at the direction i'll be looking

i don not want this to be another
"SO SICK OF LOVE SONGS..SO DONE WITH WISHING"

WAy BacK into LOvE

I would probably be the one who composed this song..
..this is actually the feeling i want to tell the world
..can relate so much
..i love this MUSIC AND LYRICS

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!
All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to she'd some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end.

. It'LL be ALriGht

Here alone in my room
Thinking of the dream i had last night
You were so close next to mine
Trying to tell me that tomorrow will be alright
..that i should not cry
..that i should not shed a tear
I was wondering
when i wake up
will you still be here
vanishing all the fears?

well here alone in my room.

. HoW ShALL

How shall i live my life
if it is still holding you

How shall i hold my heart
if it is still touching you

How shall touch my heart
if it is feeling you

How shall...

LiFe 101

I want to end up "living in the place I belong, with the people I love, doing the right work on purpose". This is what I really wanted to achieve but it will not happen in just one click. Why not? Because life can seeem very unpredictable at times. We have no control over the outcome of certain events sometimes. We may encounter twists and turns - those surprising events and circumstances that happen for a reason you are aware of-you'll realize that everything that happens to you is part of a perfect plan designed especially for you personalized, LIFE 101 course.

GET A LIFE. Be a risk taker on a spiritual journey. Feel the feeling of lightness. Have you experienced generally at peace with yourself? Maintain the upbeat attitude. Have a deep spiritual life and faith. Be witty and funny. Savor simple pleasures life has to offer. Have a mind that is free. WOW! As in a BIG WOW! I wish we could embrace all these lifestyle suggestions in order to have a rich purpose. These may seem unrealistic nowadays because we are living in a past forward world. What we do feel is a sense of urgency. We treat life as an emergency, frantically crossing things off our list, so we can get it all done. It's just like we're always want to go somewhere but never being anywhere. Where are we going anyway? We're better prepared for th future but less able to enjoy the present. We don't give ourselves a break. Of course, we need breaks now and then. We have the right to say "TIME OUT"! In our lives, when we let ourselves experience the perfection of the present, we do the same thing. When we're not exhausted by what has happened or worried about what's to come, we enter a realm outside- or more appropriately - inside of time.

As for me, "one way to get the most out of life is to look upon it as an adventure" that's why I'm creating this blog. I want to post here more of my ADVENTURES IN ORDINARY LIFE.

...this isn't fair

title pa lang...sounds like my hinanakit..hihi..bkit nga ba? well..sometimes i think that what is happening to me isn't fair..parang i still don't get any..failed sa lahat ng bagay..i'm such a big L..naku! I'm afraid..i'm starting to self-pity again..i used to it..this should not be my attitude now..tapos na ako rito eh..tsaka i promise not to down myself..it doesn't help at all..God doesn't want me to feel this..He wants me to win because I'm His child..Actually, i have a lot of shortcomings and sometimes didn't trust His plans..i'm such a stubborn..He's giving me lessons but i keep on making everything on my own..there were times that i ignored Him..i didn't even pray..i don't like these..i should make a big transition in my life. i should do what i can do right now..and i should put my trust to Him..God is good that he entrusted me all these things i have in my life..he is so good that he provides me just enough for me to be contented..HE IS SO GOOD, HE'S SO GOOD TO ME.

"LOve hurts when we ask something in return. If it is a true love, just give. Don't expect something out of it.:)"
haay actually hindi ganun kdali un, pero ang great diba? masarap kc magmahal kahit na sobrang ang sakit sakit na. So hard to know that the one you love is hurting not because of you but because of other. Pero you are still pretending to be okay, still trying to hide ur feelings. As i always say, love is a risk. But feeling ko walang talo sa pag-ibig. Kc it's a gift from GOD. may part nga dun sa quote na nabasa ko "you just have to choose who's worth the pain" meaning masasaktan ka talaga once u take the risk but u still have a choice. It's all about choices. No one can take you the freedom to choose pero minsan you can't help but to be hurt syempre kahit anung pilit, eh kung un talaga eh. ang hirap nu? Basta ako...hindi ko nga alam eh..heheh:) bsta, God knows my heart. Why worry? Pwede na man magpray. Bsta dapat maging thankful sa lahat ng experiences kc may lessons, may learnings. un ang masaya dun. ngggrow ka as a person and as God wants you to be. Kahit ilang ulit ako masaktan..hindi pwedeng hindi ako magmamahal. I love to love. The best use of life is love. The best time to love is now.

,,love has come my way

in love? wow! dont believe it. kc naman he always makes me happy. pero ngaun sad ako kc ang tindi na ng nararamdaman ko. parang ayoko na mafeel ito. ang hirap kc. cant sleep at night. xa ung nasa isip ko before matulog xa pa rin ung nsa isip ko. nakakainis xa. ganito talaga pag love. nakakabaliw. gusto kong umiyak. magsenti. sumigaw. kiligin. haay..last night nga nktingin lang ako sa mirror habang iniisip xa. kc naman bat ganon xa? he always brightens my day. he always makes me smile. pag wala xa wala na akong gana. pag anjan xa gusto ko kausapin xa pero hindi ko naman magawa. naku ako kc ung tipong mahiyain. di nga ako makatingin sa kanya. pero ang masaya dun knowing that anjan xa na nangungulet, haay.....ang ganda ng paligid ko. pero i dont know his feelings. maybe for him i m just a friend im just an ate. pero ganun pa man, im so glad na rin that he came into my life. ayoko na. nahihirapan ako pag ganito. hindi ko na xa iisipin from now on. ang daya kc. baka nga xa di ako iniisip e. unfair pero..hay..anu ba? nahihirapan na talaga ako. hay..lamig lang ok. hehe. nakakainis na talaga xa. if he only knows my feeling. but im not that type talaga and hindi un natural sa girl. haay..............Jesus, help me pls........:0 thankful pa rin ako sa feelings na ito. i love you Lord, i love you Jesus.

..here i go again and i hate this feeling

Well this is the story behind my shout out posted in my friendster account..here it goes. HERE I GO AGAIN AND I HATE THIS FEELING. 'Feeling' meaning i'm starting to fall in love again and i really hate it because im experiencing love sick. Haay..i didn't expect to meet someone in a least expected place. i thought that my life right now would be boring but suddenly someone just came in a very special day and i can't help but to feel something i can't deny. I've been living with the shadow overhead. i've been sleeping with the clouds above my bed. Yeah, it's a Way Back into Love. And this time I'm certain that it will gonna work out for both of us. But actually i am thinking about what should be my move. Should I meet him halfway? Should i exert efforts and show some signs? (sigh) What is actually present are the pimples in my forehead. Sobrang dami na. Can't sleep at night. I can't stop missing him. Can't help but wait to see him na mangungulet and pangingitiin ako. He really brightens my day. Walang down moments pag kasama mu xa. Feeling ko there's something between us that binds our hearts. yon! im just praying na sana this is it. God will surely knows how i feel right now and im so glad to trust Him with my feelings. LOVE has come my way. Everything's gonna be okay.

..Because of Your Love

how can I see Your face and receive Your loving grace
when I am here shamed in sin
hurting You deep within
yet everytime I run and flee
You take me home forgiving me
with the skies I feel Your touch
no other love can be this much
You are there as I hide with Your arms open wide
for You alone have the greatest love the world has ever known
a love that never ceases to embrace a weary heart
and give a brand new start
provides light where the sun has never shown
now I can understand that I am here because of Your love
so I take Your gentle hand only to sin again
and yet You turn then stubbornly you take me home, forgiving me
how can love as great as this even want to exist
oh God of all that's good and true
please believe I love You too
though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more
you are there as I hide with Your arms open wide though I walk through desert's doors
I will fear nothing more nothing more
...as You take me by the hand that I am here because of Your love

...if i were a butterfly

if i were a butterfly, thank you LORD for giving me wings

if i were a fish in a sea, thank you LORD for i can swim

and if i were a robin in a tree, thank you LORD for i can sing

but i just thank you, father for making me, ME.

so simple song yet it really brings great joy to me knowing how unique i am and how blessed i was made. i just want to express how much i've been thankful with my life. i want to go back from where i started. i was nothing then. i was that small, curly-haired girl who you can always see sitting on the front seat of the class. i was that very shy girl who was hiding behind my sister when i saw my classmate approaching because i was not properly dressed up. i was that young lady who felt in love with a guy who she expected to be his man someday. i was that dreamer who dreams to teach kids someday or to work in a good company in order to provide my family their needs. i was that crying lady who always cries when confronted with problems. i was that struggling student trying to go to class with only have enough money for transportation and food or sometimes no budget for food because of some extra expenses. i was that newly graduate who is trying to have a good start of my career......and that ends my story......i mean that begins my story.

well ...let's take the last line 'i was that newly graduate who is trying to have a good start of my career'. just want to share my story..my one of the greatest struggles. i was hired by let's call it 'HIPPO COMPANY' . i was blessed of course because i was able to do administrative functions which is so much related with my field of study. i took effort to travel from Novaliches to Makati just to be on time. what i am trying to say is that i did a lot sacrifices just to get the Administrative Assistant position. i was enjoying my work but unfortunately without any warning, i found myself being humiliated !. actually with a warning..a memo from my boss asking my written explanation as to why i tolerated someone..it's such a long story and i choose not to tell more because i don't want to remember all. well i was judged by people around me, i felt really small, i was accused. but it doesn't end there. I'M PROUD OF MYSELF. why? i realized a lot. I realized how much GOD LOVES ME. He carried me during my lowest times. He even wiped my tears before falling down. He stayed with me to make me calm. He lifted me up. He reminds me that 'if my GOD is for me, then who can be against me?'. Wow! My that experience made me a better person! Now i'm telling you that i'm not that too sensitive now like before. I take life as not as serious as before. i mean i'm enjoying things even life brings me to the end of the rope..oh well! I'M TeSted! I'm strong, I'm sure...always ready to face whatever struggles life may give. i really changed! for better i am sure! what i am praying right now is that may i have the gift of wisdom to choose wisely...to be more cautious in making decisions. may i always be aware that there are consequences ahead that certainly i will face...may i be more faithful so that i may be more conscious every time i'm making a wrong move.. i should be more prayerful so that i can become closer to God..i wish i could express how much GOD LOVES ME through this testimony. I realized that GOd never fails anyone who believes in him...He could give us far better than we can imagine..as long as we are faithful...as long as we keep the love in our hearts..as long as we are growing in age and wisdom as the way God wants us to be.

i will love the Lord with all my hearti will love the Lord with all my soul i will love the Lord with all my mind....with all my soul, with all my heart, with all my mind.