TwiLight of my Life

About three things I was absolutely positive. First, Edward was not a vampire. Second, there was part of me — and I didn’t know how potent that part might be — that I'm thirsty of. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.

If I was being honest with myself, I knew I was eager to get to work because I would see Edward. And that was very, very stupid.

My throat suddenly felt tight. I wasn’t used to being taken care of, and Edward ’s unspoken concern caught me by surprise.

I was consumed by the mystery Edward presented. And more than a little obsessed by Edward himself.

As always, I was electrically aware of Edward sitting close enough to touch, as distant as if he were merely an invention of my imagination.

I couldn’t allow him to have this level of influence over me. It was pathetic. More than pathetic, it was unhealthy.

I turned slowly, unwillingly. I didn’t want to feel what I knew I would feel when I looked at his too-perfect face.

I wasn’t interesting. And he was. Interesting… and brilliant… and mysterious… and perfect… and beautiful… and possibly able to lift full-sized vans with one hand.

It was difficult to believe that I hadn’t just imagined what Edward had said, and the way his eyes had looked. Maybe it was just a very convincing dream that I’d confused with reality. That seemed more probable than that I really appealed to him on any level.

I can’t imagine why that would be frustrating at all — just because someone refuses to tell you what they’re thinking, even if all the while they’re making cryptic little remarks specifically designed to keep you up at night wondering what they could possibly mean… now, why would that be frustrating?

His voice was like melting honey. I could imagine how much more overwhelming his eyes would be.

And I couldn’t stop the gloom that engulfed me as I realized I didn’t know how long I would have to wait before I saw him again.

I feel very safe with him.

I didn’t like it. Not seeing him. It makes me anxious.

I wanted to close that little distance, to reach out and touch him, but I was afraid he wouldn’t like me to.

I was stunned by the unexpected electricity that flowed through me, amazed that it was possible to be more aware of him than I already was. A crazy impulse to reach over and touch him, to stroke his perfect face just once in the darkness, nearly overwhelmed me.

Just give me a minute to restart my heart.

I think I forgot to breathe.

I love you. I will always love you, no matter what happens now.

Here comes D

Here comes D
I don't know why him
When i was editing the way back into love lyrics
he approached me
we had a little conversation
hoping to start with sweet sensation
actually work related issues
well sign na ba un?

and just like the lyrics..
i've been looking for someone to shed some light
hope that would be J_ _ _ _ _ _ D _ _ _.

Lord, I'm praying for someone
who will accept me the way i am
who will be there to vanish of my fears
who will love me
who will stand by my side and looking at the direction i'll be looking

i don not want this to be another
"SO SICK OF LOVE SONGS..SO DONE WITH WISHING"

WAy BacK into LOvE

I would probably be the one who composed this song..
..this is actually the feeling i want to tell the world
..can relate so much
..i love this MUSIC AND LYRICS

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!
All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to she'd some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end.

. It'LL be ALriGht

Here alone in my room
Thinking of the dream i had last night
You were so close next to mine
Trying to tell me that tomorrow will be alright
..that i should not cry
..that i should not shed a tear
I was wondering
when i wake up
will you still be here
vanishing all the fears?

well here alone in my room.

. HoW ShALL

How shall i live my life
if it is still holding you

How shall i hold my heart
if it is still touching you

How shall touch my heart
if it is feeling you

How shall...

"LOve hurts when we ask something in return. If it is a true love, just give. Don't expect something out of it.:)"
haay actually hindi ganun kdali un, pero ang great diba? masarap kc magmahal kahit na sobrang ang sakit sakit na. So hard to know that the one you love is hurting not because of you but because of other. Pero you are still pretending to be okay, still trying to hide ur feelings. As i always say, love is a risk. But feeling ko walang talo sa pag-ibig. Kc it's a gift from GOD. may part nga dun sa quote na nabasa ko "you just have to choose who's worth the pain" meaning masasaktan ka talaga once u take the risk but u still have a choice. It's all about choices. No one can take you the freedom to choose pero minsan you can't help but to be hurt syempre kahit anung pilit, eh kung un talaga eh. ang hirap nu? Basta ako...hindi ko nga alam eh..heheh:) bsta, God knows my heart. Why worry? Pwede na man magpray. Bsta dapat maging thankful sa lahat ng experiences kc may lessons, may learnings. un ang masaya dun. ngggrow ka as a person and as God wants you to be. Kahit ilang ulit ako masaktan..hindi pwedeng hindi ako magmamahal. I love to love. The best use of life is love. The best time to love is now.

,,love has come my way

in love? wow! dont believe it. kc naman he always makes me happy. pero ngaun sad ako kc ang tindi na ng nararamdaman ko. parang ayoko na mafeel ito. ang hirap kc. cant sleep at night. xa ung nasa isip ko before matulog xa pa rin ung nsa isip ko. nakakainis xa. ganito talaga pag love. nakakabaliw. gusto kong umiyak. magsenti. sumigaw. kiligin. haay..last night nga nktingin lang ako sa mirror habang iniisip xa. kc naman bat ganon xa? he always brightens my day. he always makes me smile. pag wala xa wala na akong gana. pag anjan xa gusto ko kausapin xa pero hindi ko naman magawa. naku ako kc ung tipong mahiyain. di nga ako makatingin sa kanya. pero ang masaya dun knowing that anjan xa na nangungulet, haay.....ang ganda ng paligid ko. pero i dont know his feelings. maybe for him i m just a friend im just an ate. pero ganun pa man, im so glad na rin that he came into my life. ayoko na. nahihirapan ako pag ganito. hindi ko na xa iisipin from now on. ang daya kc. baka nga xa di ako iniisip e. unfair pero..hay..anu ba? nahihirapan na talaga ako. hay..lamig lang ok. hehe. nakakainis na talaga xa. if he only knows my feeling. but im not that type talaga and hindi un natural sa girl. haay..............Jesus, help me pls........:0 thankful pa rin ako sa feelings na ito. i love you Lord, i love you Jesus.

..here i go again and i hate this feeling

Well this is the story behind my shout out posted in my friendster account..here it goes. HERE I GO AGAIN AND I HATE THIS FEELING. 'Feeling' meaning i'm starting to fall in love again and i really hate it because im experiencing love sick. Haay..i didn't expect to meet someone in a least expected place. i thought that my life right now would be boring but suddenly someone just came in a very special day and i can't help but to feel something i can't deny. I've been living with the shadow overhead. i've been sleeping with the clouds above my bed. Yeah, it's a Way Back into Love. And this time I'm certain that it will gonna work out for both of us. But actually i am thinking about what should be my move. Should I meet him halfway? Should i exert efforts and show some signs? (sigh) What is actually present are the pimples in my forehead. Sobrang dami na. Can't sleep at night. I can't stop missing him. Can't help but wait to see him na mangungulet and pangingitiin ako. He really brightens my day. Walang down moments pag kasama mu xa. Feeling ko there's something between us that binds our hearts. yon! im just praying na sana this is it. God will surely knows how i feel right now and im so glad to trust Him with my feelings. LOVE has come my way. Everything's gonna be okay.